arwym | My ponderings on Life, Part 1 (Reply)

Indeed, it is just life.

People around you often lead you to believe that there is only one or two ways to live life. There isn’t. There is an infinite array of paths you can take, and all it takes is to ignore your fears, embrace the unexpected, and just DO IT.

And for the last five years or so, that is what I have done. Many of the decisions I have taken have led me to dead ends or rather unpleasant grounds. I have had to turn around and start anew more times than I would have wished. I have disappointed more people than I, in my whole life, thought I ever could, all in less than five years. And I am still afraid, every time I do it, because of the people I will disappoint and the doors that will close forever. I am afraid to ruin everything, but that is because, it is at the most crucial points in my life, that I forget what life is.

Life is what you know, life is the moment. Life is what you are making of it at that time, and what may or may not come. And life is what others make of it for themselves, too. And even though your decisions may change a great deal of it, you are never in total control. And let us begin with the fact that you did not even choose to be born… or did you? (Damn, if only one could choose.) I have to tell myself that repeatedly, because in my arrogance, I continue to think that I am in control of everything. I can’t, and never will. I must learn to embrace the unexpected. And with this I am not saying that one should live without rules and goals. By all means, please do. But what if it doesn’t work? What if what your calculated outcomes never happen to come true? Or what if they do, but what feelings and ideas you thought you would have of them, are completely off? Then what? Well, if you can, turn around and move on.

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